(Warning,
major spoilers ahead. Do not proceed unless you have completed all
three major instalments of the Mass Effect video game series.)
Mass
Effect 2, Horizon. Most M.E. players will remember
the mission immediately; the yellow grass in the glaring sunlight and
the black clouds of seekers in the smoky sky, the trapped colonists
frozen in the dark stasis fields, the ghastly scions and terrible
praetorians. But in spite of the unprecedented victory against the
Collectors which the mission was, and despite the still horrible
death-toll to the colony, what many players will remember most
specifically is what happens after the battle, when Commander
Shepard’s old ship-mate unfreezes and finds him (or her) there.
The
internet rings with complaints of the marine’s harshness,
intractability, and unreasonableness. If all the posts are to be
believed, then deep resentments were engendered that day. The marine
does the unthinkable, and refuses to accept, support, or join
Shepard’s mission, they even go so far as to criticize Shepard over
it and become distraught. And they walk away from their old
commander.
Ouch.
Yeah. Nobody likes that scene. (Or at least, I’ve never met anyone
who did.) Depending on the playthrough – what kind of person
Shepard is, which marine is there, what Shepard and the marine have
been to each other, how Shepard chooses to handle the marine’s
shock – both the content of the scene and its effect upon the
player and the characters can vary. But the fact always remains …
the marine vehemently reproaches Shepard, tries to argue Shepard out
of the mission with Cerberus, and turns their back on Shepard.
Why?
The marine is supposed to be Shepard’s friend! In some
play-throughs, they are Shepard’s beloved. What happened?
But,
let’s back away from Horizon and the marine for a little while.
Because this post really isn’t about the marine, it’s about
Commander Shepard, the Illusive Man, and what could
have been.
From
our comfortable ‘meta’ position as players, we can see well
enough what is going on with Shepard and Cerberus. We know perfectly
well that Shepard is real and acting freely. We can see what the
Collector mission is all about, and how it is likely to unfold. An
astute player will be aware that the Illusive Man is probably not
telling Shepard everything and will keep their eyes out to avoid
being manipulated. But the player knows what’s up.
It
is easy to forget that this pleasant point of view is one that the
characters inside the story do not have … not even Shepard herself.
(Just for convenience sake, I’m using a feminine pronoun – I
played Femshep.) Since she has an ‘inside’ perspective, she knows
a great deal more than most other characters can – she knows who
she is, she has a great deal of evidence about what she is
undertaking. But that unsettling comment Miranda Lawson makes about a
control-chip … until the moment in the Collector Base when it
stands within Shepard’s power to give the Illusive Man this power
he desires or to withhold and destroy it, she really has no proof
that there isn’t a chip.
Because
there could have been. Shepard was totally in the power of the
Illusive Man for almost two years. If he had wanted Shepard primarily
as a tool, he could have done it. And he could have used her very
dangerously. I can only think that he didn’t because her chief
value in his eyes was symbolic. While she was of course very useful,
she was first and foremost not a weapon, but propaganda; the symbol
of humanity against the reapers. That she be the genuine real deal
was more valuable than that she be a dependable asset. But what if
he had primarily wanted a tool?
If
we look at it from an outside perspective, away from the player, from
Shepard, the simplicity of the situation vanishes. The matter becomes
cruelly complicated, the possibilities of what might be going on are
suddenly multifarious.
A
renowned Alliance soldier is spaced in battle, her body is lost in
the void. It is accepted that she is dead. Two whole years later, a
person who appears to be this same soldier enters the galactic stage,
working with a known terrorist organization of great power and
technical ability.
What
exactly is this soldier?
Well,
it really could be the soldier. But it could be an imposter. And yet
again, it might be technically the soldier … but with something
wrong. Any of these three, and the many possible variations they
contain, would be reasonable to postulate under the circumstances.
I’d like to take a minute, and explore a few of the possibilities
here.
If
really the soldier …
-
Shepard could have just been rehabilitated in secret, and is just coming back into the world now because she’s finally recovered. She’s still everything she was before, just has found herself in peculiar circumstances. (We have the benefit of knowing that this is the correct one.)
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Or Shepard could have been much less badly hurt in the space battle than believed, and since then been living undercover purposely; perhaps working by choice with this organization due to a change of allegiance.
If
the same soldier, but messed with …
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Shepard could have had that control chip. Very very easily. This might not alter who she is, but it would very much alter what she has the freedom to do, perhaps even what she has the freedom to see.
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Considering that she had been in the hands of an organization like Cerberus, brainwashing would have been a very real possibility. It could even have been theorized that those two years of absence might have been used not for healing her, but for twisting her. It could have been a very confused and psychologically damaged Shepard who reappeared; one deeply under the manipulative influence of the Illusive Man.
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It could have been really Shepard, alive, aware, and there, but with some other will acting through her. Creepy, I know. But theoretically there are ways the Illusive Man could have done this. Shepard would have been little better than a prisoner in her own body.
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She could have been simply indoctrinated. Not long afterwards, most Cerberus operatives were.
If
an imposter posing as the soldier …
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It could reasonably suspected that it is a Shepard clone. That thiscould have been done is so well established that such a clone actually appears in a M.E.3 DLC – and causes havoc.
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An android is at least a superficial possibility.
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Plastic surgery, facial transplants, voice synthesizers. This theory is easily disprovable, but could have been easily postulated by those who knew little. (Clearly, it wouldn’t have gotten past Commander Bailey of C-Sec.)
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It could have been Commander Shepard’s real body, Commander Shepard’s own brain, working and functional, but with Shepard herself gone, and someone or something else in her place. (Yes, creepy again, I know. Sorry, this is a creepy subject.)
This
is not meant to be an exhaustive list of the possible villainies
which Cerberus could have perpetrated with and upon Shepard. It is
merely to explore some of the possibilities which a person within the
story could reasonably theorize. And if you look at the reactions of
different characters and groups to Shepard’s reappearance, there
are indeed a range of responses.
For
a lot of people who knew Shepard only by reputation, the reaction was
simply: “Hey! I’d heard you were dead! Weird!”
But
when she returns to Alliance Command, they are so confused as to what
happened, that they put her under house-arrest and take months to not
make up their minds what to do with her.
Aria
T’Loak, self-declared ‘queen’ of Omega, states straight out
“That could be anybody wearing your face.”
Gianna
Parasini (the corporate detective from Noveria) seems to assume that
she had been undercover or something, and avoided asking awkward
questions.
Tali
Zorah, Shepard’s spunky Quarian friend from the fight against
Sovereign, temporarily fears an imposter. Depending on the
play-through, this can be brought to light or remain unsaid. If
Shepard tells her at Freedom’s Progress something that only the two
of them knew, Tali will then and there accept completely that Shepard
is real and can be trusted. She still can’t go with her, since
she’s got her own mission to worry about. But she doesn’t have to
think about it for months before deciding to trust her.
Garrus
Vakarian … bless his innocent heart! The idea of a fake Shepard or
twisted Shepard clearly never even occurs to him. Such deceptiveness
is not a concept Garrus seems to find easy to grasp. He is naturally
a little reckless (okay, we all know Garrus, he’s crazy reckless!)
and takes situations as they come without too much critical
examination. By the time the idea of something being wrong is brought
squarely before his notice, Shepard’s genuine presence has already
rendered the idea preposterous.
Liara
T’Soni was not quite in the same position as the rest of the
galaxy. After all, she had helped to arrange this. She had given
Shepard to Cerberus with the understanding that they
were going to try to revive her. They were a pro-human organization,
and they wanted to help the human hero. VoilĂ ! Here she is. (Yes, I
know Liara took a risk in giving them Shepard. I guess I’ve just
been analysing the enormity of the risk. But I can’t for the life
of me comprehend how anyone – especially in retrospect – could
possibly have the heart to blame the dear girl!)
David
Anderson, Shepard’s commander. It is difficult to say exactly what
he thought. He never tells us directly. From the content of his
message to Shepard, he thought the reports of her being alive were
unlikely to be true. When she shows up on the Presidium, he treats
her as though he assumes that she is Shepard, quite friendly and
helpful. In the play-throughs where he is councilor, he reinstates
her Spectre status. … But then he won’t give her classified
information – security risk, he says. My guess is that Anderson did
not know, and knew he did not know, and decided to stand back and
watch her prove herself … or not. He treated her kindly, and was to
a certain point willing to help her, but not trust
her. Not yet. Of course, by the beginning of the M.E.3, when the
reapers attack, he has clearly made up his mind.
This
brings us back to the marine.
(It
is difficult to talk about generalities. While I know there are a
number of different ways this story arc can play out, the version I
myself am most familiar with is one with Staff Commander Kaiden Alenko and
a primarily paragon Femshep, in a serious relationship, where Shepard
is actively seeking reconciliation. So, I write with that version in
mind, but I believe that most of what I have to say applies quite
broadly.)
I
am aware I may be playing with fire. So be it.
Well
then, the marine is shocked by the Cerberus connection, tries to
argue Shepard out of working with them, and then retreats. Why would
he do that? … In light of what we have just been examining, I don’t
think his reasons are really so terribly obscure.
Firstly,
there is just the fact that she is working with Cerberus. Please
remember what Cerberus is, not only in the broad view, but
specifically to Kaiden Alenko. From the player’s
point of view, it may mean chiefly the irritating shady guy funding
the mission. From some of Shepard’s alien friends’ point of view,
it may mean merely that Human supremacist organization which doesn’t
like them. But from Kaiden’s point of view, they are not only the
evil terrorist organization he is currently assigned to fight,
they are ideologically everything he stands against. Think for a
moment of the racist agenda, the secret, cruel experiments, the
terrorism, the treachery, the willingness to do whatever evil is
convenient in the name of future benefits for a favoured group. And
then think of Kaiden, and his decency and compassion, his unbigoted
respect of persons regardless of race, his principled rejection of
using unethical means in pursuit of whatever ends. He will of course
have just learned the real culprit in the
kidnappings. But that Cerberus was not to blame here specifically
doesn’t change what it is. Cerberus is the enemy. And Shepard
is with them. This alone would cause shock and
horror. That his friend, his comrade-in-arms (let alone his
sweetheart) would willingly do something as wrong and foolish as
allying with this monster appals him. Of course he challenged her on
it. Any friend in his understanding of the situation would have to.
He tries to dissuade her so vehemently because he truly believes that
she is making a terrible mistake which will seriously endanger both
her and others.
But
of course, it wasn’t just that. There was also the whole ‘what is
the soldier?’ question. And as we have seen, that really is very
complicated. Kaiden seems to assume at first, as thoroughly as
Garrus, that of course it’s Shepard. And for those first few
moments he is just glad to see her. Once the Cerberus connection is
brought to light, this happy assumption is challenged. Right there,
while they argue over the merits of the Cerberus mission, he openly
suggests that she may be being manipulated by the Illusive Man. His
fears moved into the second category (see above). And, as we find out
later, they move even farther, into the third category
– he realizes that this might not be Shepard at all. This fear is
not brought directly to light until M.E.3, on Mars. Kaiden doesn’t
speak it openly on Horizon. But in retrospect it is clear enough.
When exactly this last terrible possibility arose in his mind is
never stated directly. I am inclined to think it occurred toward the
end of that conversation. But that he realized it at least by the
time he sent that message to Shepard is evident – that quiet little
‘if’ … if you are the Shepard I remember. Taking into account
both what he said in that letter and the fears he revealed later on
Mars, we can come to a fairly clear picture of his response to that
question, ‘what is the soldier?’.
He
didn’t ‘answer it’ at all.
Instead,
he considered the situation, came to an understanding of what the the
possibilities were, and then chose none of them, but remained in
conscious doubt for months … until he had proof which
one was correct.
Meanwhile,
he tried to act in a fashion appropriate to any of the theories. He
tried to be kind and supportive to her. He reached an understanding
of how she – if it was her – could be doing all this in good
faith and perhaps even wisdom, and so encouraged her as well as
cautioned her. And at the same time he tried to be firm and cautious
lest he allow her to betray him and others into a Cerberus plot. And
all the while he was in that terrible doubt, no longer clean grief –
but balancing precariously between hope and fear. Was she really all
right and back again? Was she enslaved? Was she gone? Was Shepard
herself still in that form? He did not know. And so he waited to find
out for real.
I
don’t think he gets enough credit for this response. Not only did
he think the matter through more thoroughly and come to a better
understanding of the situation than most characters did, not only did
he manage the really quite formidable feat of succumbing neither to
the hope nor to the fear and maintaining his rational scepticism, but
he took her seriously enough to realize that it was necessary to do
so. The fact that he retreated, that he withheld from her his
confidence, and doubted her, has seemed to some to be an act of
disloyalty. It wasn’t. It was an act of faithfulness. To the
Alliance, yes: he could not abandon his command and his remaining
men, break his orders and disregard his oath – to run off on a
Cerberus mission. To Principle, yes: he could not do this thing he
thought was wrong because it called him in a voice he loved. But it
was also an act of faithfulness to Shepard herself. What if it was
not Shepard? If he did these things he believed (however mistakenly)
were wrong for her, and gave everything (be it loyalty,
friendship, or romantic love) which had belonged to Shepard to … an
imposter, a monster, a perversion perpetrated upon her bones. … It
would be to break faith with the dead as well as the living. What did
he care who it seemed to be? He wanted to know who
it was. It was Shepard herself that mattered. And if this
wasn’t Shepard …
And
when he actually has a chance to observe her first-hand, when he
actually gets that evidence he has waited for, how long does it take
him to come to the correct conclusion? Not long at all. And then he
owns up as soon as he can.
So,
did the marine handle Horizon perfectly? Not at all. A man of perfect
intellect could have come to a complete understanding of the
possibilities at once, rather than tripping over them as he tried to
make sense of what was going on. A man of perfect patience might not
have become overwrought at his old commander (or friend/or lover),
might have been able to totally conceal his own distress and exhort
her with utter serenity. A perfect man would have swallowed his own
fear more than Kaiden was able to.
But
Kaiden did good. He was a mere mortal man, and his own confusion,
anger, and fear came through. He welcomed her back, tried to prevent
her from making a dreadful mistake, and when he failed and realized
how devilishly complicated the situation was, he retreated to try to
make sense of it (oh, and he really did have to handle his
responsibilities as commander of the resident defence force) leaving
her with good wishes and the best advice he had.
And,
back to the Illusive Man and Shepard. Let’s jump forward a bit. The
marine didn’t trust Cerberus huh? Thought they were bad news all
over, sure to betray, certain to do great evil? Do we just want to
think of how closely Cerberus actually cooperated with
the Collectors at times? Do we want to think of the trap in the
Collector ship? Do we want to talk of Mars and its slaughter and
theft? Of Eden Prime and its invasion? Of Omega and its Naziesque
regime? Do we want to go back to the planet of Horizon again
a year later and visit the damned death factory? Do we
want to remember who it was who gave our plans to the reapers and
stole the catalyst?!
Does
more need said on that score?
And
Shepard. Because we all know that Shepard is Shepard, we all assume
that everyone should trust her (or him). But really, should they?
Throughout M.E.2 Shepard can cooperate with Cerberus to an extent not
justified by her mission. Does she upload the info to the Alliance?
Or to Cerberus? At the
end of M.E.2, that abominable Collector Base, all that devilry and
power … if Shepard gives it
to Cerberus she has committed the very evil and treachery that the
marine feared. She will, in fact, have proved his angry, horrified
warnings correct. And at the end of M.E.3? She can, if she so
chooses, bring about the Illusive Man’s vision.
Shepard
may always be the real Shepard.
But that was not the only question. Let us not only say that more
than one theory can be postulated upon Shepard reappearing with
Cerberus. Let us remember that more than one theory can be true.